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VISIONARY
TEACHINGS by Gill Schwartz
QUANTUM COSMOSIS
A Visionary Exploration of the Cosmic Realms Linking the
Divine Intention and Everyday Life in the Four Square Realm.
This Council of five Helpers came at my desperate plea for help to heal
or shed my wound tattered heart. I felt enslaved by its fear-filled reactivity
and barbed defensiveness. I couldn't easily love or accept the needed
love from others. And my light was not being lived. Each of these Helpers
has a role in conveying the pure being of Source to guide my life's purpose
and provision. They also transmit the life-force patterns formed by my
deeds, foibles and choices back to influence the Divine's Plan for me.
It is the most caring, intimate and forgiving interaction I can imagine.
Though they came at my prayer, they clearly reveal universal realities
that I hope will help you connect with your Helpers to benefit you in
your quest for healing and fulfillment.
These five Helpers are my contact beings in the Four Realms through which
Divine Intention is transmuted in quantum leaps from one Realm to the
next. They are the means of conveying the pure being of Source into our
life's pattern, purpose and goal. In return, they transmit Its manifestation
through the life-force of our deeds, foibles and choices back to fulfill
and modify Divine Intention. They personify and are the means to be more
consciously aware of the workings of these Realms in my everyday life.
In my vision I was shown four discreet Realms, each with their own splendors
and challenges, interlocking through a Rainbow Bridge, a gradation of
energies, that extended across the ocean of being, from the subtlest Celestial
Realm to the Material Realm..
As my prayer of need was answered through vision, the first Helper that
graciously appeared was Metatron, an Archangel, an angel of the Throne
and the Presence. She appeared to me with three sets of wings, feathers
gloriously extended out in an arc behind her. Each set was a different
radiant color, indescribable in earthly words.
Her features were too radiant for me to make out except for her Third
Eye and her Heart. Both had three distinct layers, the same colors as
her sets of wings. The luminous grandeur and caring she emanated awed
me. A loving Feminine Presence from the Heart of God. In total surrender
to her, my heart and third eye merged with hers.
At once I was graced with a vision of the Source, the Unmanifest Divine
Presence -a blast furnace of Light-Being-Love that seared away all but
my beatific entrancement -Absolute Identity. Unutterable Splendor.
Blissfully immobilized, dissolved into being, at one with Highest Consciousness
and Love, I could see that this Highest Reality shines through all dimensions
and forms. This glorious Aliveness is the Ground and Goal of all becoming,
the Splendor that glows in everything. A leaf's springtime unfurling,
our life's dreams and longings, the death of a child or a star, each expresses
and carries some aspect of the Eternal, the inexpressible boundless Highest
Reality.
My awareness absorbed in hers, Metatron taught me. Her Heart touching
mine, she took me down through my heart's three layers, the depths of
love. The outermost layer, the one I knew as my wound-tattered heart,
entwined with the world around it, was the prison of my past, it's pains
and longings, projected into my present outer world. The next deepest
layer of my heart she revealed was my heart's soul, my inner emotions
and passions, the meanings and truths about my being, the source of my
personhood. Then, enfolding me in a sense of caring and security, she
took me to a place I would have feared to go alone, the deepest layer,
the awesome Heart of my heart, where it merges with God's.
As my own heart drank and drank of that innermost nectar, Metatron took
me into resonance with her Third-Eye. My consciousness was absorbed into
a luminous, shadowless field of awareness, a field of consciousness where
everything was revealed in its fullness. All was evident, beyond thought.
Entrained with her as I was, she led me to experience the translations
that she, and all the hierarchy of angels, create to transmit the Divine
Intention in communicable form -'messages' that can be transmitted. Through
her, I experienced the Inexpressible Being formulated into manifestation.
She transposed that outpouring into a personal message for me. The 'meaning'
of that message was far beyond my mind's grasp, but it moved through my
being like illuminating music.
This, then, the Celestial Realm of the angelics, was the first Realm I
was shown. Merged with Metatron, I witnessed the transmutation they performed
to facilitate this quantum leap from the ineffable Divine Intention to
merge into the Celestial Realm. She illuminated into my understanding
that this was the first level in Cosmosis, the process of giving Divine
Intention manifestation and expression in all four Realms.
Metatron released me to descend into the next Real of manifestation. In
the Celestial Realm there was no physicality and I was a formless spirit.
As I was gently transposed down into this next Realm, I was aware of an
energy matrix throughout it. It was a cloud-like form I took, but I could
sense grid-like lines of force swirling through it that radiated great
potentiality.
The Helper that appeared to me in this Realm was an Ascended Master. He
had finished with his need to incarnate eons ago. He is one of those called
'the Lords of Karma'. Although he never reveals anything about himself
or lets me see him as anything more than a glowing egg-like shape, he
is open and cordial in helping me understand their roles in Cosmosis,
Because he is on the Council that guides the Council of my High Self,
I call him Elder Brother.
These Councils focus on group karmas and callings. I saw these facets
of the overall Intention as different colored Rays emanating from this
Etheric domain down through the astral where individual souls aligned
with their Ray as part of their vehicle of manifestation
Elder Brother brings me into resonance with himself as Metatron did. Now
I recognize some familiarity with the process and suspect I've been taken
through if often, but not knowingly. Even so, I'm stunned as I merged
with his Cosmic awareness. It holds the incredible complexities and interactions
of this Realm's etheric matrixing. Through his consciousness, I grasp
that it serves as a formatting for the Celestial Realm's 'messages' to
possibly become thought and action.
The Lords of Karma work with Storehouse Consciousness, the Akashic Record.
This holds the memory trace of every soul's unfolding -every detail, pattern
and purpose- past and future. The Lords use their incarnation-ripened
wisdom to formulate the karmic patterns -or action scenarios- to align
each individual's process with the expression of the Divine Intention,
to be capable of bridging the next quantum leap into the Material Realm
of space, time, thought and action.
The third member of my Council of Helpers to appear to me in this visionary
teaching was Kalananda His name can be translated as 'the Bliss of Time'
or the 'Ecstasy of Darkness'. The goddess Kali's name is a form of this
same word.
He has been active in my life from early on. Even in my teens I was drawn
to Indian music and Oriental philosophy. As a young man I studied classical
Indian dance with a gifted teacher from India, Bhashkar Roy Chowdry. Before
long he asked me to join his concert troop and danced in a Broadway show
he choreographed. In my thirties, I got another gift from this past life
when I was strongly drawn to study Yoga. It was just becoming known but
I found an accomplished teacher. I was pleased with how easily it came
and soon realized that I wasn't learning, but recalling. Skills and gifts
surfaced naturally and before long I felt the call to start teaching myself.
Some time later, I was keenly aware of his presence during my years in
India where I realized that he was the soul of my previous incarnation.
I was more comfortable with the lifestyle there than I'd ever been in
the West. It wasn't unusual for friends to tell me that, except for my
looks, they would have taken me for Indian. One of the many clear instance
of his clear presence was on my first train trip into Tamil Nadu, where
I spent most of my time. I heard his inner voice say, with great pleasure,
as clearly as if I were speaking to myself, "Now we are going home."
He was a recluse monk who lived in a cave as an ascetic. During much of
my time in India, I was drawn to live as a monk. His spiritual paths were
Kaivalya -absolute separation and renunciation- and Sva Darshan, a mystical
path that calls one to be present to one's own inner Light and witness
oneself as an altar of the Absolute. My life's challenges and issues reflect
those same concerns.
Kalananda's soul and mine merge in our deep psyche. I've found this evident
in many ways throughout my life. Now, in this vision of my Council of
Helpers, he is able to help my understanding how the abstract matrix of
karma makes the quantum leap to the this next Realm, the astral, Soul
Realm. Through the power of the individual soul's personhood, it transforms
the interweaving webs of its karma and Divine Intention into personal
reality and meaning. These can be the means to manifest through individual
thought and action.
As well as I knew Kalananda before, now, as a member of my Council, I
met him in a new way. Now he was a teacher and guide. His deep longing
to merge and manifest Source gifted me incredibly. But some of his personal
characteristics troubled me, especially when they related to my own lifelong
self-challenges.
True to much of Indian spirituality, he considered himself separate from
and above others, a chosen one, a twice-born Braman. Also truly a monk,
he preferred his solitude above company or distraction. A mendicant, a
beggar monk, he would see others only out of the necessity of getting
food in exchange for his services as teacher, healer and a psychic guide.
Visions and study led me to understand his view is but one level in the
development of mature spirituality. First there is the discovery of the
One within oneself. Then there is the greater recognition that the One
is at the core of all beings.
Seeing him joined with the other members in the Rainbow Bridge, I recognized
those characteristics in him as aspects of his path in the great coming-into-being
of the Divine Intention. That understanding became vital to my work on
the healing of my heart; now I could begin to honor those traits of my
own that troubled me so.
Then, the last two Helpers appeared together. I was startled to see two
such dissimilar beings so obviously connected. One was Bodhidharma a kind
soul of pure and limitless self-giving love. A fully compassionate heart
with ready hands to express its caring. His long dark beard and hair were
hidden by the cowl of his blue monk's robe, worn low to shield his tender,
melting eyes and heart from all the pitiful suffering about him. His hand
was in the auspicious gesture of peace . He reminded me more of Jesus
than Buddha and gives me access to that deepest well of the heart that
Metatron revealed to me.
His partner, and, as I still gradually come to understand, his compliment,
was Ookmah. Ookmah is from another planet or realm. He is as intelligent
as his companion, but descended from lizards, he is lizard minded. His
rows of pointy teeth are always bared. Green, scaly skin, blood red eyes,
and taloned claws he always keeps raised. He sums up his viewpoint simply.
"Humaans", he hisses. "Wonderful when roasted, but very
bothersome when alive."
When I get angry, he is quick to lend me suitable images and emotions.
But Ookmah's perceptions of people and situations are ruthlessly clear
and detached. He also gifts me with a fervor and decisiveness that has
enabled me to live an adventurous, fairly fearless life.
I'd contacted them both before in visioning and healing work, but I'd
never imagined them relating with each other, different as they are, let
alone being partners. But they truly are. When I call on one, I now realize,
the other also appears. For much of my life the rage of one was the protector
of the other's vulnerability. Bodhidharma and Ookmah are In the heart
of each other, equal and opposite. They are twin prongs, wondrous compliments
and torments, the imponderable paradox whereby my soul engages in the
Four Square Realm. Even though they appear to me to be diametrically opposed,
together, in synergy, they are the means for me to span this last imponderable
leap from the Soul Realm to the Material Realm of beings and things, into
the here and now, into duality and passing time.
Now, I was back in my worldly self, the familiar life-view and attitudes-
the mind, feelings and body I knew as me. It seemed all the other aspects
of my being I'd just been graced to experience were encapsulated in that
'me', into that bit of the Four Square Realm I inhabit. In the past, I
had felt the physical part of me as a blessing during dance, yoga, and
lovemaking. And, when my soul was exhausted with the continual compromise
and sacrifice I felt inherent in the dualistic nature of incarnating,
it felt like a flexible coffin.
But now I had a perspective that gave me vastly different ways to hold
this 'me'. In my visionary journey through the four Realms, I'd also been
opened to my corresponding levels of consciousness. Although I was immediately
hypnotized at being back in my body, by the limitations of the reality
it perceived, my other levels of knowing and perception didn't disappear
completely.
That especially helped in working with the tension between Ookmah and
Bodhidharma. Till then, treating them as a necessary either/or had contributed
to the heartache in my life. Rather than dismembering adversaries wrenching
me back and forth, I found I could know them as a polarities in higher
service. Their seesaw balancing could be a means to give expression to
my role on the Rainbow Bridge.
These two complimentary archetypes were to enable me to live out/through/in
this Realm of Ten-Thousand Things. For me, Bodhidharma and Ookma hold
the divine power of opposites. Together, they do a sacred ceremonial dance
It is a source of ecstasy, tortuous conflict and wondrous paradox. When
I can manage to not take it personally, I see their interplay as masterful.
Separately and together, they bring great depth, distress and passion
to my life. They urge me, through their tormenting polarization, to create
a mind and heart spacious enough to have room for them both, together.
The drive to materialize spirit and to spiritualize matter is the guiding
impetus throughout all Realms. The descent of Divine Intention into our
specific and detailed 'here and now' is part of a reciprocal flow. From
that consciousness of the vision, I perceived how even the most personal
and idiosyncratic aspects of my life recirculate up through the Realms
to reach Source.
In response, I perceived Its a gratitude for service given to the Divine
Intention, a welcoming as to a child, and for me, as a spark, the feeling
of devotion fulfilled on returning to the Flame.
I recognized that the manifestation of all these Realms in my life, even
in their limited and distorted form, is what gives my life meaning and
purpose. All Realms are permeable to each other and interpenetrate, free
of time. So all the facets of Cosmosis happen simultaneously. Each aspect
of Cosmosis reflects every other one, in my life as well as yours.
When I so immerse myself in the Rainbow Bridge that I come into resonance
with my Helpers, my reality shifts. I know myself as a partner with them,
and that defines who I really am and what I'm about. From that perspective
of awoken self-knowing, I witness the vast incomparable beauties and wonders
of the four Realms interplaying to shape every moment in our lives. And
merged with Highest Conscious and Love, I witness that all this vast interplay
of Realms rests in the Divine Ocean of Being.
In resonance with Metatron's Heart and Third-Eye, dissolved into their
Splendor, brings me into alignment with the Divine Intention for me, and
empowers my day-to-day life. Suffused with Presence, she is my Council's
hub, her intention guide the Council for my life. I follow the meta-mental
processes Elder Brother uses to perform his service in Cosmosis. A wise
and ripened spirit who well grasps and uses the peculiarities of the various
Realms, to implement the messages transmitted by Metatron and her kindred
angels.
Kalananda gives lifelong purpose and gift to my quest. He is a doorway
in my psyche to my other past lives. He teaches me what is Holy and that
everything is an altar. His utter separation from others leaves me the
soul task of fulfilling the High Self by connecting with others the best
I can with this monk's soul. The strongest karma I bear as his heir, is
to hold the recognition that the Self I seek is the Self of all.
Through the diametrically opposed partners, Ookmah and Bodhidharma's I
connect and interface the Four Square material Realm with the trans-substantial
Realms. As I work with them more consciously and open-heartedly, we three
learn and evolve with each other. Engrossing my energy with their continual
interplay, aware that they are the polarities I am to manifest through,
provides guidance for my soul's purpose, which seems more clearly formed
and so it can be carried out, perhaps less compromised by the forces of
circumstance and whimsy in the Four Square Realm.
In every instant there is the vast beauty of this universal interplay
of balance and compensation. The unfulfilled challenges of my day are
intimately and compassionately witnessed by my Helpers who then redefine
my calling and capacity in the Divine Intention. The sacred process of
Cosmosis is both challenging and forgiving.
Or, insofar as I choose, I can ignore my Council of Helpers and go about
things on my own, in my own limited human way.
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